Archive for October, 2009

Prayer to my Goddess

October 25, 2009

My Goddess Ms Lee, you are my guide and my rule – Amen

I subject myself to your authority and supremacy – Amen

You give my life purpose and direction – Amen

Without you, I am lost, frustrated and unfulfilled – Amen

Please forgive me my sins and shortcomings – Amen

I beseech you to continue to bless me with your wisdom – Amen

And I beg you to allow me to remain your faithful boy – Amen

my generous Goddess

October 18, 2009

Lately my Goddess has been very generous to me. In last week’s post i discussed how She had recently allowed me to masturbate as much as possible for two days. i was astounded because She has never given me such freedom in the past. i was lucky enough that she was allowing me to ejaculate so much. It was beyond belief that She was also allowing me to touch myself and masturbate normally.

During two different chat sessions within the last three weeks She has also allowed me to masturbate under her direction. She also allowed me to touch myself both times. I couldn’t be sure if She would allow me to ejaculate during these sessions, but both times She pleasantly surprised me by giving me permission to do so.

Due to my Goddess’s recent generosity, I have been allowed to ejaculate more times in the last three weeks than in the entire three months prior. i am so fortunate to be owned by such an awesome Goddess and I am now on my knees thanking Her for her benevolence.

i am not sure why Ms Lee has been so generous to me lately, but i suspect She may be rewarding me for good behavior and progress achieved.  If so, i am grateful and i will increase my efforts to please her regardless.

However, Ms Lee never ceases to surprise me and always keeps me off balance. She may decide that I now need an extended period of chastity to reinforce my learnings and submission. She might let me ejaculate again in the near future. She might let me touch myself again, or She might not. The most tantalizing aspect of all this is that my actions will probably affect her decisions on when i can touch myself and/or cum next, but i cannot predict just how. All i know for sure is that i must work hard and do my best to please my Goddess. Then i can be assured that She will decide what is best for me.

my reward

October 11, 2009

i finally completed my three week correction for failing to pay attention to Ms Lee while we were chatting. my previous post contains my final report which i had to submit to Ms Lee, telling her what i had learned from my correction.

i was quite surprised when i received Ms Lee’s reply. She told me that as a reward, i was to masturbate for Her as much as possible for the next two days. i couldn’t believe how generous She was being to me, i have the perfect Goddess!

i proceeded to do exactly as Ms Lee had instructed me. Every time i came i was also required to eat my cum. The first time i had a very copious ejaculation and the cum was spilling out of my hand. The next time i came, the volume was a bit less and by the third time barely anything came out.

i was getting drained, but i continued to masturbate. There were two reasons why i continued to masturbate even after i was drained. The first was that Ms Lee had instructed me to do so. i always do as Ms Lee tells me to. The second reason i continued to masturbate was because i had no idea when Ms Lee might allow me to do so again. When She first took ownership of me i was required to go for months without being allowed to touch myself.

i do not know when Ms Lee will allow me to cum again. When She does, there is no way of knowing if She will allow me to use my hands. i do know that She is very generous if i have been good, so i will work very hard to please her. i know that i can’t count on such a reward for being good, but pleasing Ms Lee is reward enough anyway.

Correction and Punishment

October 4, 2009

Today I have completed my three weeks of correction and punishment for not paying attention. Here is my final report I sent to Ms Lee regarding what I learned from my correction:
First and foremost, I must apologize again for my failure to pay attention when I was online. It was inexcusable for me to not be available when you sent me a chat message and I will not let that happen again.

I also have to thank you for your wonderful correction. As usual, you were very creative in your punishment, but more importantly it has benefited me greatly. I say your punishments are wonderful because of this. First, they are so severe that the lesson is seared into my subconsciousness, which helps me avoid any repetitions of my error. But more importantly, your corrections always help me learn things about myself, which in turn makes me a better boy for you.

One of the lessons I have learned is that I am always to be thinking of you. I must be very aware of where you are and what you are doing, particularly if you might be online at the same time. I just read your email concerning online chat and I understand completely. I will always set my status to ‘available’ and if I see that you are online I will politely ask you if you are available to chat with me. I will also compose the message to lilly you requested regarding the advantages of chatting with you. I do not feel there are any disadvantages. The punishment and correction I received from you for not paying attention while online was completely justified and necessary. I inconvenienced you and failed to pay proper attention to you. Your punishment and correction did not harm me in any way. Quite the opposite – it actually benefited me and made me a better boy.

Another lesson I have learned, almost as a side effect, is how to avoid ogling the women who dress up for real men. During the three weeks of wearing your chastity sleeve all day I have learned to modify my behavior. I used to occasionally get erections while ogling these women, but with your chastity sleeve on that was not possible. Instead, I would feel my cock strain against the sleeve, which in turn reminded me of you. I would feel embarrassed that I was not being a good boy for you and feel badly. Then the next time I saw a women dressed up sexily I caught myself looking away without even thinking about it. This repeated and has now become my more common response. I feel much better about myself now and I must thank you for helping me this way.

I also learned that you are very generous and unpredictable. I can’t believe that you were so kind as to allow me to ejaculate for you during chat last week.

Finally, I have learned that you own me and my sexual function. I find myself unable to resist your commands and expectations. There could be no better Goddess for me than you.

Thank you for being my perfect Goddess. I am on my knees begging you to allow me to remain your faithful and obedient boy.