Wash Day

One of the more humiliating aspects of the panties that I bought at Macy’s is that they are so delicate they require hand washing. I had to ask Ms Lee for instruction on how often I was to wash my panties and was told that I must never wear them more than twice without first hand washing them.

It is quite embarrassing for me to go though the task of hand washing my panties. And of course I perform this chore while wearing Ms Lee’s chastity sleeve underneath of the panties that I am assigned to wear that day. Today I am wearing my black lace panties, as my panty schedule requires. And of course I wear Ms Lee’s chastity sleeve all day, every day.

After washing and rinsing my panties, I must carefully lay them out flat to dry, being careful to maintain their shape. Once they dry, I then carefully fold them and put them away until my schedule calls for me to wear them again.

No Valentine’s Day Release for me

Even though my current chastity period has been relatively short I was hoping that perhaps it might please  my Goddess to allow me a release on this romantic day. However, I certainly have no right to expect any special privileges or treats just because it is Valentine’s day…

Then again, perhaps my being denied on this day is the most appropriate Valentine’s Day gift I can offer my Goddess!

Another twist on my chastity roller coaster ride

Ms Lee recently caught me off guard again by informing me that due to a positive event in her life, I was to celebrate with her. I was to do so by being allowed to masturbate one time for her pleasure. Even more surprising, I was allowed to do so with no restrictions – no chastity sleeve, no cock ring, no panties, nothing! To top it all off I was also allowed to touch myself and use my hands to masturbate.

This was a rare treat indeed for me, but unfortunately i failed to fully enjoy the opportunity. After being in chastity for a month my balls were bursting with pressure. I had intended to take my time and enjoy a leisurely masturbation session. However, within a minute of starting I could feel my cum boiling to the surface and I was unable to resist my greedy pigmale desire to just spurt it out. The pressure and the long-term denial were too much for me and I wasted my one chance to enjoy an old fashioned masturbation experience.

After my very brief masturbation exercise ended I was ashamed that I was unable to hold out any longer. A real man would not have lost control of himself so quickly, but then again Ms Lee has taught me to understand that I am certainly not a real man. I can never hope to please her as a real man does, and can only try my best to please her as her property. As I pondered these truths I realized that this masturbation opportunity was designed to bind me even closer to her will.

Now I am back in chastity for my Goddess’ pleasure and naturally I have no idea how long this chastity period will last. Even worse, I fear that Ms Lee will not be so generous next time and I may not enjoy such unrestricted freedom the next time she allows me to produce.